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Saturday 5.7.05: Restless
Our video project for the zoo was well received on Thursday morning, but I had to wait till Friday PM to get the final feedback from reviewers. So suddenly there was a great space yawning in front of me.
It was not the space where I am suddenly energized to catch up on dormant projects or new ambitions.
It was the kind of space where I just... stare into space. No energy. No ambition. But not really exhausted enough to sack out for an extended time. So I installed new software, did the laundry, watched aimless TV.
A few years back, I got the domain name "restlessness.net" and I was going to write some kind of web-based 'zine, different from this site. I had a manifesto, which I once posted here, but apparently the page is archived somewhere. It went like this:
Hmmm... not bad. But yesterday's restlessness was not a fever -- more a torpor.
Today I we're going to the zoo to get a little more footage and I'll be back to work on my project. The restlessness will be channeled again -- a river held within narrow banks, moving fast, no longer a boggy swamp.